Bottles upon bottles of empty Laudanum and discarded changa clutter the tables, shelves and floor of Laurencia’s Spire. She paces back and forth, angrily, sadly, confused.
"They don’t WORK!"
She swipes a line of empty bottles off one of her tables, they clatter and shatter on the tile floor of her main room. She begins to mutter to herself, pacing back and forth.
"Valerian? Poppy in another form? Maybe I can condense the smoke…or hells. Maybe they’ll finally answer my prayers? Ahaha, no, they wouldn’t, not now, not now."
Her teeth held a red tint, her stomach growled in some vague protest.
"Maybe they won’t answer because they know. Maybe, maybe, am I going mad? Gods…"
Her head snaps left and right as her eyes catch fading shadows, her hands shake, she wrings them
"No, no, just nightmares, I’ve seen a great deal, yes I’ve seen so much, more than THEY would want! Yes, yes, that’s probably it…they’re plotting! They’re always plotting against one another why not ME? With all that I have surely they would plot! With what I’ve done on occasion, even if they never knew…or do they know?"
She rubs her forehead now and then her temples, eyes shifting about the main room of her Spire.
"If the society tofs would cast me down for my mysticism, why not the Masters? Why not?! They must be putting something in my water, they must be sabotaging my laudanum, there’s no other explanation, no other reason, nothing, for not anything!"
She eyes her store of candles in the cabinets, walking swiftly over to them, for reasons she does not know, she takes seven candles, placing them before her.
"Colors colors, do the candles know? You’ve shown me much my dear friends but now will you show me more? WILL YOU?"
Her hands reach out and she shoves each candle into her mouth, forcing her jaw to chew and swallow, gagging on the wax, she forces each candle into her stomach. It growls.
"Ehehehehe, they won’t be able to touch me soon, no no, not in this place, high up! They could never touch me. Candles will guard me, they always have, ehehe."
She touches the knife of lost sky hidden against her spine, as if to reassure herself.
"Is that right? Was that right? What was I thinking just now, gods my stomach hurts, what is this? There is something there, I know it, from the lights in the mirror that the Shroud never revealed. There’s something in them and is this it? Is this wrong? What…wait…ugh…"
She rubs her head distressingly, eyes shifting from each shadowy corner of her abode, dancing shapes linger in the edges of her vision. She walks over to her collection of lead plaques and with queer resignation she inscribes two tablets, one in plain English, one in the sigils of the Correspondence.
"Madness."
Her laughter continues long into the night before she passes out from many bottles of almost paradoxically cheap mushroom wine, whispering in her nightmares
"What is the name, the name, the name…"
edited by Mogu on 6/10/2016
edited by Mogu on 6/10/2016